Looking Back


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When change is needed but when prayer is reallly needed instead …..call for prayer today and until things are through changing around here…. ….again I am sorry ….yes to my children and grandchildren I am sorry for teaching you the correct way to do things…I am sorry to have to watch as others take the glory for your hard work while never lifting a finger ……I truely hate free loading want a be workers that always get things like more pay .more awards …more attention for work they never did nor do while people that do the job only get shit on …..seems it is time to develop a new type of t paper for the ones whom are really true shit….the new type of t paper would wipe them off the planet for good and would explode in flames when they were through wiping their behinds…..the photo today is about looking back …someting we all should do from time to time …looking back…. i raised you the way i was rasied …I FORGOT that it was about doing the right thing alway and never about awards,,money,,nor attention it was about being your best and getting the job done correct the firat time …. .I need lots of prayer to stay focused for next few months …..a lot of things are changing ……one can only hope and pray it is for the best even when it hurts……

Home…soil…..rain


Write down the first words that comes to mind when we say . . .

. . . home……in my heart it will always be my grandmother Hattie Jerles house…..but as a married woman and mother it is where ever my family is …where ever one of mine be it husband ,children,sister,brother ….and even some of my close friends….

. . . soil…. when we crossed the border in to Alaska..I stepped out of the van …. the minute my feet touched the soil I was HOME… home in my soul…mine…body…whenever we have ventured outside Alaska to visit family ..I can not wait to return here…when we fly home …I watch out the window for the sign from up high that I have crossed into Alaska ….

. . . rain….now in my life the word rain mean tears …..the tears are for all that is changing in my life I have no control over…I let the rain of my soul pour forth when needed and then like a rain cloud I move on to other things ……

My photo challenge today was Doorways…. trying hard to think of which door way to use ..I had plenty of old photos but the 365 has be new and different ….

as I was looking at the different doorways …I happen to see this reflection in the patio door glass….it spoke to me the many times things had changed……
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since we moved in …the changes in our family ..lives..the house….and all the things to come …I am still standing in the doorway …can you see me

Letter To Mom


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Dear Mom
Hoping your new place of living quarters is to your liking …Just a little line to let you know that you were right Mom ….all the things we last talked about have come to light …you were so right in everything you said ,,,but then you knew each of us like little mini books on a shelf….each of of the chapters unfolding …. letter by letter ….you were so right about the action of each of us …down to who would crack first and who would drag the other into pain and sorry ….wow you are and always will be the mother that not only knows her flesh and blood born but the ones that you took under your wings to raise when needed….must say you had it all figured out in advance …you and dad were always on top of us kids even when we were not where your eyes could see us…I know now the old words says that mothers have eyes in the back of their heads is true…dads do as well but maybe not as keen as yours …you were so right on each one we talked about that day …it is still unfolding Mom ….I still hear your voice saying things I really did not want to hear …but I took it all in Mom …I did listen….I did hear ….I am trying to do what you said ….trying to following your directions to the letter….like you said there would be times I would make mistakes because I wanted to help them heal …that others would try to take things to the limit …that ones would suffer silent..that ones would never speak of you again….that some would never heal… it’s all coming to the light just you said it would take to happen ….we are on our second Christmas without you … it’s a little easier but it is harder not hearing your voice .. it’s really hard for the ones you said it would be…it is so hard to do things on the old list and when it comes to your name there is void that can never be filled ….but i don’t change the list and I don’t cross off your name I can not make myself do it …you said I would know ..that my heart would feel the lost you felt when your Mom passed…You were right Mom you were so right …I miss you more than life itself …but I watch and wait as you told me to do…I hope your eyes can read this Mom …because I am not sure how to address this to get it to heaven
Your daughter
Becky